It is certain

It’s been a little over five months since I’ve had full-time employment and it has turned out to be one of the most productive times of my life. As a lifelong Christian, it’s embarrassing to admit but I have never read the entire Bible. I started reading in January and now I am halfway through. I took a leap and started my own consulting business, started blogging, and even built a website.

But what I’m most proud of is something that has stretched me far beyond my comfort zone.

I’ve experienced multiple second trimester losses and have had to face the heartbreaking reality that I will not bring another child earthside. Loss and infertility are incredibly common, yet so rarely spoken about. The silence leaves people feeling isolated, unseen, and alone.

For years, I have dreamed of using my talents for something more fulfilling, something that really makes a difference in people’s lives. Like starting a business that supports women and families walking through loss and infertility, offering financial, emotional, and spiritual care. The dream is big. Terrifyingly huge. If I do this, what impact will it have on my family? Not just financially but how will it affect how I am able to be present? I’m blessed with an incredibly brilliant and active 14-year-old son, and I don’t want to miss a moment. And honestly, it’s terrifying. Would helping others bring healing, or would it expose my personal trauma and serve as a daily reminder of my own pain?

Over the past year, I’ve been fortunate to cross paths with two remarkable women who encouraged me to simply begin. To stop trying to build the entire vision at once and instead take one faithful step at a time. Doing one thing, one time, and seeing where God takes it.

And now, in just eight short days, I’m hosting a special dinner and reflection event at Bondurant Christian Church.

As April 26th approaches, anxiety and excitement are building…Will people come? If they do, will they feel comforted? Will they be glad they came? Will I ugly cry while sharing my story? Magic 8 Ball says: “It is certain.” Eek.

But even if it doesn’t go exactly as planned, I’m deeply proud and profoundly grateful. When I look back on these months of planning, I’m moved by the compassion and generosity of the people helping bring this to life. We’ve poured care into every detail so that anyone who walks through those doors feels welcomed, supported, and reminded that they are not alone.

I still have big dreams for the future even though I don’t know exactly what it will look like. Am I on the right path? Is God with me? It is certain. 2 Corinthians 1:3–4

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”